Finding MY motivation

I've been struggling to get my mentality back in the game. After spending so many weeks just surviving and trying to help Ty along, I kind of lost myself in the mix. I don't like the way this is feeling and I just want to be back to high energy and high motivation. As I continue to duel the traces of bronchitis, it doesn't help my situation.

I need positive energy, positive self-talk and a really good workout. I love Insanity, but I don't feel "good" at it yet. I know that it will come with more practice and the harder I work, but it makes it hard for me. I may also have a bit of separation anxiety from TurboFire, the workout that I knew so well. The biggest difference is that TurboFire had routines that I could memorize. Insanity is more in the moment and I can't memorize the "routines" just yet, if ever. Maybe my lack of memorization will keep Insanity fresh and new in my mind and keep me from getting bored? Just a thought and maybe wishful thinking.

I am going to send myself to Trisha's Motivation Workshop which includes reading previous posts and trying to remember where I was. I will DVR "You Got Served" and watch that a couple of times. I am also going to watch the workouts that I feel I struggle with the most to become more familiar with them. I am also going to STOP being so hard on myself. I'm going to watch more workout infomercials.

I am also going to praise myself on all the things I DO accomplish rather than focus on the things I didn't accomplish. A co-worker always says, "I'm not in a race, I'm in a marathon." Never have those words had so much meaning and really rang true. One day isn't going to set me back that far and it won't get in the way of achieving my goals. It is when that one day becomes a habit and then, I'm doomed. I've gotta keep my eye on my end goal and not continue to focus so much on today. It will all eventually come together and I will reach my goal. What were they again? I don't even think I know anymore!!!! See how bad my focus is?????? Sigh.

Signing off for now, to all of you near and far and to those of you wondering how (once again) to get the last couple minutes of your life back (again), until next time...